Tonight I go in to the hospital to be induced. I can't believe it's finally happening...literally, I can't believe it. I feel like I'm walking around in a daze and I'm never going to meet my baby. I can't wrap my head around having a child by tomorrow night but I can day dream about not being pregnant anymore.
What an amazing, hard, life changing, exciting, emotional, fun, sweet, chubby, swollen, thrilling, rewarding experience this has been. Everyone told me that the first pregnancy drags on and that these would be the longest 9 months of my life. Sure, April seemed like a life time away when I found out I was pregnant in August but the time has actually flown by! I just took it day by day and tried to enjoy every stage of pregnancy...even that yucky first trimester.
I must admit that these last two months have been hard. I saw an amazing ultrasound of my baby at 33 weeks and ever since then the time has dragged. >>You tell me, could you sit and wait patiently for another two months if you saw that this was the beautiful face of the baby growing inside your tummy??<<
I didn't think so. Already 5 1/2 pounds and looking oh so yummy with his double chin and dimple. Mm!
Once I got over the fact that I had to wait so much longer, the super uncomfortable stage of pregnancy kicked in. I had heard all about it and seen my sisters in law go through it but I just never understood. All I'm going to say about that is I can't wait for the day (2 days!!) until I can roll over in bed without grunting and getting short of breath, until no heartburn, until my ankles don't look like they have elephantitis, until I can leave my house wearing something other than the slippers that my dear friend, Destiny, so graciously let me borrow (okay fine, I stole them), and until I can go out in public without getting a million stares and questions about my pregnancy! ((Side note: WHY do strangers think that since I'm pregnant I want to talk to them all about my pregnancy and hear their life story?! At first I didn't mind that much... but when I'm waddling around Wal-Mart swollen, 9 months pregnant, and trying not to make eye contact with anyone, it really isn't fun to hear "Oh wow, you're going to pop!"))
I'm starting to sound negative and that's not how I feel at all. I truly have loved being pregnant. There is no greater feeling in the world than feeling your sweet baby kick and move around inside your body. It's just indescribable. What a special gift that we, as women, have to grow, feel, and give life to a child. Such a blessing!
|21 weeks-- I had to show Nick my growing belly over Facetime for a month. He couldn't believe his eyes.|
|25 weeks-- that shirt hid my belly pretty well.|
|38 weeks-- Easter Sunday|
So here we go! After months of excitement, preparation and lots of growing, stretching, and swelling tonight is finally the night!! We can't wait to finally meet our precious baby boy! ♥